how ..

how do you explain it?
that excitement, some kind of yearning, a source like it's oozing out of you
that smirk on that face, that kind of glee from within.. like you just cant Wait!
that certain moment, often too short to relish..
what does it take for you to have that rush? yes, rush..
u know?.. how it catches you off guard suddenly and throws you into a spasm!
graphically, i guess you could imagine how a strong wave bashes the shore.. how it slams right in, receding just in time for you to catch the tailend .. too short! it's too short..!

if so happen say, you're fortunate enough to find that moment in the form of a song, a certain current favorite, or from a certain episode of a drama, or a certain act from a movie, you could, of course, prolong the experience, with the Replay button.
just like how after catching the tailend of the first wave, there'd be, i bet it's safe enough to say, always a second wave coming ...

but alas, like all things in life, (it's bound to happen!) .. after repeated plays, as with the continuous waves, the rush eventually trickles into a stream.. waveless, calm, even characterless ... and that, would be: The.Worst.Part.

we are all whetted through our senses .. visually, auditory, and of course, touch, smell, & taste.
often, these defining moments, are fleeting ..
Life, is.. fleeting. Capture it the best you can.




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feliz navidad

how have you been? trust all is Well in this season of merriment and laziness ..
the final 2 months of the year before we all strut off to another exciting & challenging year (mm..hmm...)

so have you been enjoying your yearend?
been treating yourselves to good food and lively banters with friends?
and of course the one too many nights when your mouth's carved wide with a glass in hand?

there's quite a lot happening in one packed month i'd say..
there is of course, the Christmas and New Year mood primarily.. no i dont really celebrate xmas genuinely .. but i do, like all others partake in the revelry and ho-ho-ho moments with perhaps a gift exchange party here and there.. party packs are best reserved for the new year countdown, which is practically like, just a few doors down the road now..

then there's my b-day too .. the one where i get confused the most among all my past 30 ones... O.o
and it makes you wonder why??
t'was a funny, kinda weird-ish type of feeling i'd had going through that weekend.
birthdays have always been something purely annual to me ... this year's though, had something else attached to it.. i still can't describe it yet - maybe i'd just rather not probe .. but yeah, i should just see it as, something purely annual.. :]

and now it's Boxing Day already ... which reminds me it's been a non-stop spending spree this month. and who says you need to step out of the house to spend on boxing day? there's always the internet and the credit card. now is that a plus or is that a hazard? i still cant decide...

until the next itch, Cheers~!! to Good Health, to Good Wealth !!!







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the list 。。。

it's always dreadful when I have an actual "to-do list" on the weekends.
I'd prefer to have zero agenda Saturdays any day, hands down!

by the time this Saturday hits, I'd already had more than a couple of virtual post-it-notes stuck to my phone...
well it's a lil' past 3 in the noon now, and I'm actually feeling a little 'phew!!' for I've cleared some of those annoying yellow ones :) *beaming.. with a mug of Nescafé in front of me**

but oh wait .. there's still the floors, .. and the direly needed car wash. palani, the guard at our office had actually threatened to not let mine in the next time he sees it 。 。 。

oh well, life's not always perfect!

year-end.. again :)

yearend.. yearend.. it's that time of the year again.. =)
can't help feeling pleased about it
year-end is the time when you feel that you can get away with just about anything and everything
after slaving away for close to a full year now, I'm sure we are all deserving what we deserve now.
good, or bad, it all boiled down to what it is now since the beginning of the year.
so are you currently now at where you want things to be?
are the results now satisfying? anything close to what you wanted to achieve since you last resolved to?
it's that joyous, capping months of another year now, and then some... it's time again to figure out what's in for next year. hmm.. what do I want now for next year?
this should be nice ... ;)

from zero again。。。

is there such a term as leg-ache?..

after more than 3 months, finally, a long overdue trip to FRIM again ..
starting from zero again, am suffering the consequences of laziness today ..

a Myanmar sojourn ..

it was another trip by the company, a period to rejoice, in re-living the smile-carving days of our hurry-hurry trip around shanghai/hangzhou back in '09.. yes, it was that long ago.

it was my first plane-catching trip for the year .. very close to a full, long year since my last trippin' to bali, indonesia last october.. yes, it was that long ago.

it started out pretty annoyingly i'd hav to say .. not too much on the paying part (altho a lil'), but really a lil' more to the woek-related annoyances. schedules had to be fixed, travel itinerary books had to be pre-printed, the royalties had to be taken care of like kings with their consorts.. literally.

a lil' out of place in a ground-travel-package oriented tour, me and mate Audrey almost got stranded at the hotel day One at Bagan.. the land of golden stupas, temples, and more stupas. yup, i guess we both took our lil' sweet time a lot longer than the others...

the place where we actually had 2 nights in a row without having to check-in-one-night-check-out-the-next-morn, we had to put up with a water chalet without A/C or TV or Fridge on the waters of Inle Lake (Heho, Nyaungshwe) ...

read: "put up with" .. but turns out a blessing in disguise indeed it was.

as we slowly took time to actually unwind from it all (not much choice on the plate anyway), the simplicity of our 'hut' made us spend more time outdoor on our cozy verandah.. me and audrey, doing our thang ..


the simplicity of the entire resort, made us spend more communal time at the communal lobby.. resorting to card games and fortune-reading sessions and plenty of beer cans to pass the nights..

the entire resort, and in fact all the other inhabited structures being kept afloat on stilts around the lake meant it was in-and-out the sampan the moment we step off our resort lobby. the restaurant, the temples, the gift shops, the handicraft workshops, they were all floating on stilts. the only difference, if you've been to Tonle Sap, the waters there were a murky tek-tarik and they were actually supported by floats and buoys. here at Inle Lake, the deepest depth was recorded only at 5metres plus, hence the stilts, said our friendly guide 'Lei'..



all in all, a longer time here around the lake meant more lasting memories on our part here ... this was where most interactions with colleagues were at, more smiling faces etched in the mind, and more opportunities for picture-taking too.

the serenity here really is, something different i must say.

when one has no choice but to adhere to a different, slower setting .. one gradually adapts and tunes in to the surrounding as well. and life here, really is, s l o w . . .

and uhm, nope, no picture-pretty line of saffron-robed monks encountered .. only hordes and hordes of petty dwellers .. hawking and selling everything from lacquerware to longyi and 'precious stones' . . .





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a quickie

hmm.. yes..
I foresee October will be a quick one.
busy days in the office .. woekends inclusive,
a co. trip (which has this part-woek nagging feelin to it) scheduled for next week..,
& the 1st half mgmt meeting the following week..,

I'm lookin' forward to deepavali
a l r e a d y . . .
=.=

>.>

mondays are always Psychotic..
like, i could totally get it.. the blues, the gloominess, that's Oh So Associated with mondays..
today we even joked about avatar and smurfs on this monday.

but this.
the randomness..
the world wide web..
the others' blogs.. just some of the things that got me through on this first night of the week. t h e l o n g w e e k . . .
and of course..
the taiwanese soap im currently at .. once you pop, you just cant stop.
the agony .. i know, i just can't Let it Sit!
will be ending it tomorrow i think, the second and last episode.
>.>




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the 1st day

back at the office today, slavin' over all the miscellaneous stuffs.. i started to miss my sweaty sofa at home . . .

back home finally from woek, i reached into the calm of my room, and started jumping around ..
should i say in glee? or maybe even bordering on maniacly?
;) i had to loosen up . . .

and now, after some bouts of touring the world wide web
i'd decided to drop by here, and found this to my delight tonight...




should've jumped to this earlier . . .
= D




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the e n d . .

exactly 45 minutes to the end of the day. sunday. the holidays.
><
when was the last time i've had a long break from woek like this?
i cannot recall, and perhaps that is why this is too much to bear.
the thought of actually having to wake up again, at 6+ in the morning, to get back to the daily grind, of always attempting to not be late at work, to always cookup the self motivation shit to get to and stay at work ...
i guess this is what an extremely long break does to moi here.. maybe not entirely to be blamed, but still, im sure it adds to it ..
excuses, excuses, yes i am guilty

this is just another rant.
one that is absolutely necessary at this moment, in grieving for the end of the holidays.
in (another) true self-articulation attempt: Let's just look reaaal for-ward to the 16th of the month, where we will all be entitled to a longer weekend, a respite from the continuous work weeks ahead, and most significantly, a shorter woek-week to bear with.


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oh, and p/s: this is totally unrelated to the gloominess above, but i do hereby promise myself (which i feel is absolutely necessary and about time) to spruce up the blog. seriously, all i need is some more inspiration from around me . . . what's that? do i hear a "good luck" there? fingers crossed then . . .




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a n t i c i p a t i o n

what's happening? what's all these?
i've not blogged as frequently i'd realized
no answer to the question why
i've scratched my head, where not given a choice, and at the risk of being pooh-poohed, i'd blame it on the iphone. . .

you see, i've had plenty of 'quick fixes' these days with the iphone on an unlimited internet plan.
it is a very nifty gadget i'd come to see.. at the touch of a finger truly. heck, to boot my now well-aged dell would mean taking the equal amount of time to already finish browsing the apple..
not exactly exaggerating, coz really, all my destination-sites are well placed strategically on the phone with one-touch shortcuts. this leaves very little room for creativity.. for browsing, for accidental come-acrosses, and thus, very little inspiration, albeit only to gibber away...

but tonight, i . c a n ' t . s l e e p.
maybe it's due to the fact that i woke only at 3+ after-noon...
maybe it's bcoz with the stalls closed downstairs, it's too quiet for a change?
too quiet to the extent that i find the compressor's excessive whirring a tad toooo excessive?

this is after all, just a gibberish one. i'd completely missed the joy of just sitting down here at my desk and browse the world over... with the cords stuck to the ears... and cap the night with my own two cents' ...

i'm trying to end this post right now, but i dont know how to do it tactfully (clock's ticking, i Need to go to bed!) ... perhaps it's the silence of it all - of it all except what's inside my head -
everythings a lil bit erratic here...
so, i guess it's just gonna be a Good Night (or morning?).




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"kasi bersih!"

and so now, the rally's been done and dusted...
not really a fan of the local political scene, but all these yellow themes and street videos popping up on my fb is pretty much darn annoying i'd have to say.
to the extent that bart simpson and spongebob too, has not been spared. . . =S

back in not too long ago, i posted a blog about how our youths don't really 'go for' things like rallies and demonstrations.. they called them lame then.
today, just not too many years from then, things have changed so dramatically.

my take on all these? what "the star says" on today's papers sums it up the best i think.
personally, i still do not prefer our nation to have these kinda turmoils. not exactly disastrous, the turnouts.. but still, the affected parties getting their desired publicities aside, what would this piece of news portray upon the rest of the communities in the world of our country?

when we read, or worse, hear of news of unrest in other countries, we think political + economic unstability. the reasons, causes.. roots and solutions only come later.
is anyone going to monitor whether those so called international news portals got their protest causes and objectives right?
can we be sure that other nations arent taking it wrong, or worse, jumps the gun and paint our country wrong?

viewing the videos of the marches and walks held at the same time in other countries.. UK, Taipei, Melbourne, Hong Kong, you name it...
it just baffles me .. the fb community keeps lambasting why there are only water cannons here. well, duh? it's for obvious reasons no?
they call them walks over there, it's called a "city lockdown" here. it's no peaceful march here, it's order-defying rallies.
the fb community jumps in the bandwagon and brandishes everything yellow they can think of.. well, praise them for their creativity, but first, are they even registered as voters? have they casted their first vote at all?
not crying pooh-pooh of their opinions on the social networks, these are just my own bafflements...

then again, as my own fb profile shows "i don't give a .." under my political views, just who am i to judge others yeah ? ? ?




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muahahhahha~!

ahem, long before the likes of lady gaga, there were the yonder year hits of gloria estefan's
=P
i simply cannot recall what age i was back then, watchin' music videos like these on the tv set.. but my mind just exploded with this beat tonight ... 1, 2, 3, 4 Come on baby say you love me! 5, 6, 7 times!! ♫♪




and then among many others, i saw this!! haahahh yes, i remember sittin' in front of the telly watchin' this one!!



classic indeed~!!




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june is here..

yes, june has happened. it is here.

finally, to my delight...

but the rain is not happenin' often enuf..

so the a/c will no longer be an option. but a must.

and so i've discovered a new album tonight.. Buy 1 Get 1 Free .. by hanjin + mc jin

no less courtesy of loon from the office. great.

all songs are great.. plus(+) a track10 which is absolutely uplifting..

happiness is free ♪ if you want it to be ♪ as it claimed

altho the song is still playin on repeat mode as im typin now,

i still beg to differ tho, cant help to not agree on that (albeit) catchy phrase..

oh well, it's a nice tune all the same... now talent, that's truly something that cannot be bought..

another itch scratched...

come June, come..!

can't wait for the month june to arrive..
in fact, every month is a milestone in itself now... =)

(p/s: yes, please have the rain come more at night !!)

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another graduation

refusing to let the night go..
guess i'll simply have to blog then

yes, it's another 'graduation' at the office soon..
someone closer to our dept, yup, from the rest of 'em departments, i wouldnt bother. but this one, it's closer to home. and i can only imagine all the inconvenience that this will bring.
heartless?
not really. how can you accuse me of being heartless when people come and go on their whims..
sigh... it's sad to say really, that the post is filled by a different person come the annual ISO audit, e.v.e.r.y.y.e.a.r.!
i hav no comment, being bitter maybe, hence no comment.

the boss' face doesnt show any emotion when he sees the letter on the table.
guess they saw it coming?
or rather, they've become immuned to this?
but how can they be? accustomed to be auto-heartless?
the bigger boss even good naturedly offered the said staff an early release, regardless that thesaidstaff had brilliantly already utilised all thesaidstaff's remaining leave earlier on.
brilliant indeed... i'll remember to add that to the book.

it's been awhile now, i havent had this kinda empty-table-nextdoor syndrome.
we all part ways no? even if not now, but still.. eventually.

like what the boss said: Life goes on.
sad but true.
to quote "i should've known better" would be a tad negative, not to mention bitterly hopeless.
but still, yeah... life goes on.
all the best, to thesaidstaff, and to all of us forging on..
adieu~♥





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right track, baby!

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fingers and toes . . .

it's ending april...
but not yet june.
come july, it'll be the second leg and nearing another year.
i know i'm sorta hurrying everything, yet, i'm not sure if i'm not fine with that.

life's good (and bad).. i like it (all of it) ..
:]

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it's annual

it's the office's annual meetings this weekend and this, somewhat crossed my mind this afternoon . . .

funny how i always manage to find entertainment during these blue smurfs meetings...

:]

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wow me

i'd hate to be melodramatic .. but above all, i'm getting this feelin all over again... no it doesnt come that often at all... with life so busy scuttling by.. with what u may ask? beats me sumtimes... Having the ipod on shuffle... having some songs from times past suddenly blasting in.. having old memories released, like encoded in these songs... yes, in fact i think each song is somewhat encrypted with a certain message, a certain mood, a certain memory, a certain special meaning.. unique only to ourselves... well i guess that's how it's like for most of us, no?

this is dejavu all over again... the feeling? the adjectives .. what? unnerving? stagnant? a lil' sweet? somewhat still hopeful? what in the world just went on??? .. and, where the hell was i??

im still here . . .

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one from the archive..

Let me count the whys I love thy . . ........................................................................ unpretentious, no hidden agenda, right smack in yer' face! 100% satisfaction, every time, at the simplest (yet) of craving. you never play hard to get, you smother at the very touch of my light.. and when the air is still enough, i see you dance in the night. yes, it's ironic that at most of these times, you are as if a company to my solitary moments.. and never a dull moment too, with you around that is. you just know how to blend so effortlessly well into congregations. into blissful sea-watching afternoons, into drink-or-die nights, into hair-pulling overtimes, wrinkles-inducing trying times, and of course, into near-clocking-out catchin' up hours. the day is still young, for now that is. you are still, unpretentious. take it or leave it. take it, then, live with it.

how close is the moon now?

Japan.. Quake.. Tsunami.. Nuke plants.. Devastation.
the world over is moved and saddened by this unfortunate turn of events.
some pledge their support in every ways thinkable, some poke fun at it with dire consequences.

Me. Read the news and watched some videos over the internet. some things you gotta see for yourself to believe it.
Kept myself updated through the online media. social networks prove sometimes a faster source of info (especially) at times like these.. it's where all sources of news, and hoaxes, are gathered at..


today, through the msn site.. saw this image:


and it struck me immediately, a scene from what i remembered of an animation, japanese nontheless..

"ponyo on the cliff by the sea"

it used to strike me as a peculiar animation this one, with all the cutish-japanesey animations sprouted undoubtedly from amazing imaginations.
but this part here, turns out this did not boil from mere imagination,.. no, not at all.
so this is what the scenes really are like over there, when there are floods of massive magnitudes.

i'm sure, even after all these ... them japanese will be able to pull through and continue to flourish, as they've always did.









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Shawshank revisited..

i luv unifi ..

i luv the oscars (a few at least) ..

but most of all, i luv holidays ..

.. fell in love with mr morgan freeman in Shawshank Redemption.. fell in love all over again tonight. not exactly the usual typecasted hero; he had his fears, his 'small' moments.. but most of all i think, i fell for his voice amongst all .. and that quick american slang that he has, playing Red.

and this ..

127 hours ... it began as a solitary pursuit, of freedom unrestricted.

"a man can be himself only so long as he is alone; ... if he does not love solitude, he will not love freedom; for it is only when he is alone that he is really free." [Schopenhauer, "The World as Will and Idea", 1818]

and this, ironically.. the view from the pit, the bottomest of it all . . .

life's like that i guess ... ~ paradoxical; contradictory, nontheless true.

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。。。

how do you get rid of that something?
that issue? that person? that feeling?
that something.. that has been hanging at your sleeves, constantly tugging at your heartstrings for a while now?

they say it's all about timing..
yes, i do think so too. fortunately, and unfortunately too, sometimes..
but most of all, it takes effort too. and the courage. to finally act on it.

stare it in the eye. a dose of whatever-overload almost always does the trick.
decide. and act on it.
let go. move on.


and..... listen to a great song.
:]





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moon on the gutter?

in a new twist to the chinese classic tale of zhong wu yan, my conclusion to this version's ending (most duly due to the weak casting!! @#%!):

我本将心向明月, 奈何明月照沟渠 。。。

that's what happens when you favor the love rival more than the main lead.
the end。





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eye candy~

streaming is a breeze nowadays.. with Unifi installed for more than a month now at home, i finally am getting the hang of it, and browsed around the internet for watchable dramas. yes, "watchable" dramas, as im sure i've put it before, watching dramas, especially taiwanese ones, is indeed, quite a taxing affair... (needless to say, i try to steer clear of koreans entirely. they belong to a different league altogether...)

taxing. yes.. it does get easier however, if you've decided to latch onto one which is a completed series. else, brace yourself to withstand the perils of waiting for an entire week for the next episode to load after they're done with in taiwan!

Zhong Wu Yan ... i caught hold of this one seeing that it starred Cheryl Yang.. (the chick from Bai Quan) and Mingdao. not really a fan of both, but i thought they'd be worth a try.. since there arent any new ones starring 小天.

indeed... what happens when after more than half of the series, you've firmly established to yourself that the main lead character should go to the guy playing the second lead?

that you seriously, seriously, want the second lead to win the chick's hands instead?

i'd fallen gaga over this new guy. it has come to an extent where i m watching the remaining few episodes just to see how he's going to cope with not getting the chick for himself. that poor sod~

of course, of course, i know .. it's all just dramuh~ and many times, it takes the NG shots they play to make me realize that it's all just a show .. XD

anyhow... this is definitely someone to watch for. Chris Wu. i cant wait until he gets his own main lead drama. i think i've had enough of him playing the second fiddle to the main actresses..

it'd be delicious then ... =]

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in the still of the night~

when im not too sleepy, and not too drunk,
i often get time to sit and contemplate a lil'
i finally snapped out of bed at 11ish this morning,
after bouts of calls on the mobile from the guys from the office.
officially starting my day as i stepped out of the haus 12ish,
reached office early with plenty of time for preparations,
but nooo~ i just had to stop by for a drink and chat with the branch guys.
so i ended up a tad late for the meeting ...
no (big) harm done i guess.. uhm, i tink.. (i hope?)

the meeting ended at 3ish.. we all had the option to leave the building and return at 6ish for the dinner. fair enough, as some had to go home to fetch the spouse and kids for the dinner, some have the nearby hotel rooms to retreat to.
but moi~, to go home and return in about less than 3 hours, seemed rather silly a thing to do.
so i sticked around.. and eventually wandered up to the dinner hall to see if they could use some help with the preparations and hall decorations.
obviously, it wasnt under my jurisdiction, nor was it under my responsibilities.
i reached to only see a handful of them doing the job.
with those supposedly incharged to help out off (home) to doll up and get themselves pretty for the dinner.
sigh . . .

1. it was (afterall, to me at least), just a dinner at the office, with the usual people around.
2. we were the hosts. not exactly the guests.
3. i do think, wouldnt it be more crucial to get the job done, rather than leave the job 70% done, and be off for some dolling up?



i do not, and very seldom, give my 100% to the company.
yet, some things you just gotta do, so as not to S c r e w up!!

i was late for the meeting..
i sniggered at the directors' speeches..
i rolled eyes when they picked me, and wanted us to do the songs rehearsals..

and yet, some things you JUST gotta do, so as to not, S C R E W up!


eventually, i'll say things went fine.
but only because, the right person were at last, around to help.
well, not myself of course. i chipped in nontheless... sometimes moral support and the presence of a 'teamwork spirit' alone gets things done, no?


the pair of dolled up receptionists slash ushers asked me why was i so plain with no make up on for the dinner.
they seemed flabbergasted.
the chief sec. asked me why did i looked so glum.. why was i not as joyous and enjoying the night as them receptions slash ushers.

i wryly answered: yes, i do wonder why they often manage to get so happy all the time at these functions.
and she actually answered: so go join them! be merry!! (like implying im some sociopath needing some gals bonding session with 'em).

and she thinks i need to join them in order to enjoy the night. hah~ .. when what i answered her, was in fact, mere rhetoric . . . =.="





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note: to come back to this

happy new year
it's 2011 now

the first day of the year started rather inconspicuously..
with the first 'brain actually in function' day being like just any other monday.
like any other, working monday.. with unfinished work brought over from the previous week...

on the first day of the year, i started work rather dull-ly..
the first day of the week, the first workday of the year, with the whole world (and traffic) in full swing, i simply could not afford to be late..
at the office, i logged in to the pc, and told myself over my msn status . . . I Get To Work.
yes, in true 'positive articulation' mode siphoned off jason mraz's blog ... i learnt to turn the words around from i have to work to i get to work. positive and simple enough right?
pathetic though, that i need to force myself to be positive on the first day of the new year?

not really actually...
not when the 'plans' had been made way earlier before the new year starts
not when the 'resolutions', or what ever you call it, have been in full swing since a few months back before the new year actually hits

so i guess that gives me valid reason to whine that today, on the second brain-functioning day of the brand new year, i find myself already slightly debunking the 'positive articulation' myth ... perhaps due to my lack of positivity.. or simply my lack of discipline.

making a mental list, of things should and should nots,
sticking to them, in order to get to one point and tell yourself you've made it.
sure, they're positive-minded and goal-achieving, yay(!)

but when it is such a chore to go by days sticking to the list,
restricting yourself based on the list... practically obliterating yourself from the fun & joy that comes with and perhaps only with, that moment... by doing something based on the list, and not what you would like to do best.
so is that what's called resolutions? goals? achievements? discipline?

i guess then it's once again proven, i really do suck at discipline . . .


a small triumph today, i managed to Not pull an EL at work this morning.
i know, that doesnt say much about not pulling one Tomorrow, but still . . One day at a time now, O` new year...






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