note: to come back to this

happy new year
it's 2011 now

the first day of the year started rather inconspicuously..
with the first 'brain actually in function' day being like just any other monday.
like any other, working monday.. with unfinished work brought over from the previous week...

on the first day of the year, i started work rather dull-ly..
the first day of the week, the first workday of the year, with the whole world (and traffic) in full swing, i simply could not afford to be late..
at the office, i logged in to the pc, and told myself over my msn status . . . I Get To Work.
yes, in true 'positive articulation' mode siphoned off jason mraz's blog ... i learnt to turn the words around from i have to work to i get to work. positive and simple enough right?
pathetic though, that i need to force myself to be positive on the first day of the new year?

not really actually...
not when the 'plans' had been made way earlier before the new year starts
not when the 'resolutions', or what ever you call it, have been in full swing since a few months back before the new year actually hits

so i guess that gives me valid reason to whine that today, on the second brain-functioning day of the brand new year, i find myself already slightly debunking the 'positive articulation' myth ... perhaps due to my lack of positivity.. or simply my lack of discipline.

making a mental list, of things should and should nots,
sticking to them, in order to get to one point and tell yourself you've made it.
sure, they're positive-minded and goal-achieving, yay(!)

but when it is such a chore to go by days sticking to the list,
restricting yourself based on the list... practically obliterating yourself from the fun & joy that comes with and perhaps only with, that moment... by doing something based on the list, and not what you would like to do best.
so is that what's called resolutions? goals? achievements? discipline?

i guess then it's once again proven, i really do suck at discipline . . .


a small triumph today, i managed to Not pull an EL at work this morning.
i know, that doesnt say much about not pulling one Tomorrow, but still . . One day at a time now, O` new year...






another itch scratched...