what triggers your "emo-drenaline"?

another after friday hours...
came back from work, left office at 630 ++ altho today we're off at 5pm.
hmm... work has been tough.
yes, this is all about work again.
it's nothing earth-moving the work i do, oh no. i dont bring in the millions nor do i move or shake the company.
but heck, one tiny screw loose n you hav the whole wheel wheeling off the creek rite?
well, i believe that's what i seriously believe. hence the "effort" i put in? (i think i do put in effort to a certain extent...) but heyyy, who am i kidding yeah? at the end of the day, nobody knowssss!!

anyhow.
the point is.
what triggers our 'emodrenaline' anyways?
i mean, here i am after work, kept myself inside the room, fillin in on this entry.
feeling a tad scatterbrain now... kinda vague on how things will work out next week...
just why are my decembers always filled with so much projects and tenders?
work has been so crazy (to me they were), that it has came to an extent where it is not scary anymore. it's beyond that. you just feel kinda ~blah~ about it now. you roll your eyes so much that it's beginning to hurt now.
it's kinda hard to carve a smile on the face now too...
i bet i've been all wok-faced at work today, and the last few days too...
and then waddayakno? today finally, is the day, that i've "lost it".... i mean, it was like an erruption... of a dormant volcano... yes, the volcano has always been there, but dormant all along... until today. and guess what, it errupted at the most unsuitable time and place and person of all...
i guess what i'm mad at myself is, just why couldn't i had held it in longer? just why couldnt i had controlled myself better? to lose it out like that to someone like that, it's more like i fell into the trap, and more like i'm headed towards the losing game already.

so again, what triggers our 'emodrenaline' again?
i have come to a conclusion.
it's the priority that you put on that thing.
the less of it, the less you'd care.
the more you care, the more you'd emo.

when you feel you can't let that issue drop, when it keeps hanging in your mind, when you find yourself reasoning on all the facts and what-happeneds, when you realize that you're defending yourself to yourself, that's when it is...
you just CANT let it drop.

time helps i guess, definitely they will. some ppl tend to forget very fast, some takes longer.
dun ask me which type of ppl do and which type dont.
i still havent got to that stage where i can 'read' ppl like that.

i think, it'd be kinda funny somehow, when one day i return to this post and find that my priorities have shifted.
i mean, i bet i'll go like ... "cheh! how trivial!!!~"

=.="




another itch scratched...