in the still of the night~

when im not too sleepy, and not too drunk,
i often get time to sit and contemplate a lil'
i finally snapped out of bed at 11ish this morning,
after bouts of calls on the mobile from the guys from the office.
officially starting my day as i stepped out of the haus 12ish,
reached office early with plenty of time for preparations,
but nooo~ i just had to stop by for a drink and chat with the branch guys.
so i ended up a tad late for the meeting ...
no (big) harm done i guess.. uhm, i tink.. (i hope?)

the meeting ended at 3ish.. we all had the option to leave the building and return at 6ish for the dinner. fair enough, as some had to go home to fetch the spouse and kids for the dinner, some have the nearby hotel rooms to retreat to.
but moi~, to go home and return in about less than 3 hours, seemed rather silly a thing to do.
so i sticked around.. and eventually wandered up to the dinner hall to see if they could use some help with the preparations and hall decorations.
obviously, it wasnt under my jurisdiction, nor was it under my responsibilities.
i reached to only see a handful of them doing the job.
with those supposedly incharged to help out off (home) to doll up and get themselves pretty for the dinner.
sigh . . .

1. it was (afterall, to me at least), just a dinner at the office, with the usual people around.
2. we were the hosts. not exactly the guests.
3. i do think, wouldnt it be more crucial to get the job done, rather than leave the job 70% done, and be off for some dolling up?



i do not, and very seldom, give my 100% to the company.
yet, some things you just gotta do, so as not to S c r e w up!!

i was late for the meeting..
i sniggered at the directors' speeches..
i rolled eyes when they picked me, and wanted us to do the songs rehearsals..

and yet, some things you JUST gotta do, so as to not, S C R E W up!


eventually, i'll say things went fine.
but only because, the right person were at last, around to help.
well, not myself of course. i chipped in nontheless... sometimes moral support and the presence of a 'teamwork spirit' alone gets things done, no?


the pair of dolled up receptionists slash ushers asked me why was i so plain with no make up on for the dinner.
they seemed flabbergasted.
the chief sec. asked me why did i looked so glum.. why was i not as joyous and enjoying the night as them receptions slash ushers.

i wryly answered: yes, i do wonder why they often manage to get so happy all the time at these functions.
and she actually answered: so go join them! be merry!! (like implying im some sociopath needing some gals bonding session with 'em).

and she thinks i need to join them in order to enjoy the night. hah~ .. when what i answered her, was in fact, mere rhetoric . . . =.="





another itch scratched...

note: to come back to this

happy new year
it's 2011 now

the first day of the year started rather inconspicuously..
with the first 'brain actually in function' day being like just any other monday.
like any other, working monday.. with unfinished work brought over from the previous week...

on the first day of the year, i started work rather dull-ly..
the first day of the week, the first workday of the year, with the whole world (and traffic) in full swing, i simply could not afford to be late..
at the office, i logged in to the pc, and told myself over my msn status . . . I Get To Work.
yes, in true 'positive articulation' mode siphoned off jason mraz's blog ... i learnt to turn the words around from i have to work to i get to work. positive and simple enough right?
pathetic though, that i need to force myself to be positive on the first day of the new year?

not really actually...
not when the 'plans' had been made way earlier before the new year starts
not when the 'resolutions', or what ever you call it, have been in full swing since a few months back before the new year actually hits

so i guess that gives me valid reason to whine that today, on the second brain-functioning day of the brand new year, i find myself already slightly debunking the 'positive articulation' myth ... perhaps due to my lack of positivity.. or simply my lack of discipline.

making a mental list, of things should and should nots,
sticking to them, in order to get to one point and tell yourself you've made it.
sure, they're positive-minded and goal-achieving, yay(!)

but when it is such a chore to go by days sticking to the list,
restricting yourself based on the list... practically obliterating yourself from the fun & joy that comes with and perhaps only with, that moment... by doing something based on the list, and not what you would like to do best.
so is that what's called resolutions? goals? achievements? discipline?

i guess then it's once again proven, i really do suck at discipline . . .


a small triumph today, i managed to Not pull an EL at work this morning.
i know, that doesnt say much about not pulling one Tomorrow, but still . . One day at a time now, O` new year...






another itch scratched...

speed of light~

some things dont come by that often..
some things happen to happen just without you anticipating it..
and other things just dont happen often enough.

birthdays come by once in a year.. not that often, an annual affair. but why am i complaining yeah? well if it's the merry-making that i enjoy so much, i've got some dear friends which i would very much gladly be merry with on their birthdays!! =P

the national team winning a title at the nearest international scene possible.. doesnt happen really that often enough, and it's the national football team's regional victory against our dear neighbour INA tonight.. a perfect bonus to the young players and the country (they took home USD100k in prize money!). minute but still, more good things to come perhaps? ... and the least anticipated, we all huddled around the living room, unnerved with each attack aimed at keeper Fahmi .. clearing of dishes, breaks for toilets, a good mug of nescafe, only at half-time! =D

the year end is blessed with a few good holidays too~ no less thanks to my woekplace's chairman-in-charged. so we have to practice the bunga raya♪ and the jingle bell rock♪ every morn at 8 ( =S ).. so i have to wait for the 'new' vvip room's new coat of paint to dry (blahh..) .. it's all part and parcel of what's called 'my-work'.

and this, is all part and parcel of what's called (my)Life.
=)

the speed of light~ while listening to the speed of sound by coldplay..
the year is (very) soon drawing to a close.
the local radio station's tagline this yearend: what exciting things have you achieved in '10? well, who cares!?!
let's just enjoy the annual transition on the eve of all eve, and think about Resolutions next year!
=P


another itch scratched...



oh, an additional line here... the PM just declared the new year's eve a public holiday here.
=D
let's just all go swamp the shoppin malls then.... =D




another itch scratched...

11days to a spankin' new year..

how do you continue to suppress yourself when u already feel the absolute need to just shout out?
i cant do it on messenger.. and absolutely not on facebook
not when they're both all crawling with my colleagues (and bosses) from the office..
so by all means, blogging is the only way to go...

i am darn lazy to work now. the holidays feel have definitely kicked in~
the boss himself has been relaying things down this morning so that we dont call him when he goes on leave Next Week (it's only tue now... )

doesnt help that it's all rainy and greyish and moody..
doesnt help that i was late by about at least half an hour to woek today..
a car had turned turtle on the route towards sg buloh, and miraculously the road cleared right after i turned left into ldp towards pj. no wonder no one at the office believed me when i said "jam" today.
shocking.. shocking...

doesnt help that the team will be having a xmas dinner at the kl bird park tonight..
doesnt help with Kev repeatedly asking me how many bottles he should be bringing tonight. tequila? chivas? or just wine?
doesnt help that the company has got this friday officially off..

doesnt help at all...



another itch scratched...

bp

no, not british petroleum.. it's beautiful people~

sia kate isobelle furler

brandon richard flowers

hayley nichole williams

damon albarn

just another itch scratched...

hollidecember~

boi, it sure does feels like a weekend
a late saturday, early sunday kinda moment now..
when in fact, it was a monday night .. with a national holiday here on tue.

time for some gibberishing, my first in the month december
the one with most conflicting thoughts for moi~

different people lead different lives right ?
and different people carry different schools of thoughts in their heads, right ?
that's just how things are ~!

well i've been having a list of blogroll for some time now,
and i'd been increasingly checking in on their posts for some time now too.

a simple glimpse into their life perhaps,
an unintruding way of knowing what they were up to, what their hearts lust for, what their raging thoughts were.. although, i know not even one of them personally.
just interesting, random people chanced upon on the world wide web..
typecasted from the little fragments of personality they portrayed online

the way they write ..
the things they do .. the lives they lead..
but mostly, the template of their blogs.
plain, white backgrounds with grey/blue fonts never fail to fuel my enthrallments...

this is a nite after some wine. really, i am still, very sober.. sober enough i think.
a mish mash of all things tonight.
thank you sis, for the very, lovely thought :)
thank you friends, for the always, eye & mind opening conversations..
and thank you sir, for putting me into this situation.. yes, tq nevertheless..

sultry voices never fail to inspire.
or in this case, to gibber away ...




another itch scratched...

a mellow itch~

the night is supposed to be preoccupied with paperwoek brought back in sacks from the office..
but then, with the marvels of the www and my downloading itch on, i hav instead, this mellow one on replay on the player tonite...

another itch scratched...