one Tuesday in July 2016

What makes you happy?

Just simple joy?

A smile to your face? Right now?

At times, you could be so tired, that tired from life, that moving that one inch of face muscle seems like a drab

Shopping for clothes? Accessories?

Looking pretty in them?

Having a slim, fit , healthy body?

Having fabulous skin?

Yes, the epitome of a healthy & balanced lifestyle

You work to earn, earn and spend 

Going for vacations?

Holidays .. months on end? 

I had that before.. Not having to work. On hind thought, not having work.

But it was a holiday to me nevertheless

Stayed home and not traverse the world

It was my holiday nevertheless 

It was priceless .. no other experience could replace that

It might not have been the cleverest or brightest choice to make, but it was the right choice for me then. And I made it.

Going away, getting away from the mundane

Buying things, spending money and acquiring stuffs

These are but temporary measures

Effective though once in a while,

Keep them effective by doing them only once in a while

What about everyday life then?

Don't look at Facebook posts so much

They too, only post those once in a while happy posts

Don't be fooled into thinking that they have a clue everyday

Now, Tuesday... what should I do? What should I do with you?

3:41am , 7 November 2015

It suddenly got me thinking, yes, at this hour while I'm getting ready for bed..

We all have these friends on Facebook..

The health & fitness buff: 

They check in their runs, they share the latest announcements on coming runs, they even share a neighbor country's latest volcanic ash spews (mountain hiking kaki maa...)

The do-gooder, kindness preaching philosophy advocate:

They share multiple images of wellbeing, kindness, self-contentment, empowering quotes and pictures, at multiple times a day, multiple days of the week. 

The emo-attention seeker extrovert that claims they are in fact gifted & 'one-of-a-kind' introverts:

They share the latest news articles from overseas news dailies (overseas news are faster, and more credible.. they just don't do locals. And when they do, they strike these local news hot & fast will a plethora of I-know-it-better & I-told-you-so), 

they do all sorts of personality quizzes that claim individuality but are in fact 3-types of rigid categorizing of a myriad of human personalities. 

The child, property, safety know-hows & videos buff:

Count on them to share the latest (and sometimes not so latest) videos on carjacking, child kidnap attempts, robbery-at-gate videos, lost son/ lost daughter/ lost pets (from don't know when & whether they'd been actually found & recovered).. just share first, better safe than sorry maa...

Ok wait, I don't want to drag on lest I be labeled The Bored Hoarder Who Thinks She's Never Done Any Of The Above..

Oh wait, you mean to say you really don't have friends like the above, and it's only me?

Guess it's about time to drop some of my Facebook friends then...

58th

This merdeka day celebrations,.. there's no feel to it at all

In years past, we'd crowd around awe-inspiring TV commercials with focus on racial unity and gratitude to our forefathers who brought this nation into one

But this merdeka, our 58th, is marred with something more important 

A current issue at hand, a pressing one that is on top of (most of) everyone's list

Where past anniversaries served as run-of-the-mill annual reminders to fortify our unity and instill gratituity,

This year's marks a different awakening of sort.. there will be a rally. Voices want to be seen and heard..

Are we finally progressing through another threshold as a nation? 

Right.. for what it's worth, things could go either way, still, I'd like to call it a progress.

At the very least, we are moving forward..

Let it be known to the world.

(｡-_-｡)

Yep.. Our time here on earth, alive, really is limited

So why am I even worrying endlessly on work now?

Go to sleep, jen.. Go to sleep.

And if you must dream tonight, only sweet ones then.

我 好 好。。。

Refusing to sleep at night..

Refusing to get up in the morning..

Too much temptation in the night..

Too much to-do in the morning..

Too much throwing caution to the wind at night..

Too much positive self-psyche in the morning..

So much calmness in the night, so much music to stick into the ears at night..

Too much jamness in the morning, so much rush.. Rush to work, rush for parking spot, Rush for work to be done.. When silly me already know, they can never be Done done.

。。。

I'm being gibberish again..

A new birth today..

A funeral tonight..

Life is such..

Rejoice for the endless new possibilities 

Rejoice for a life well lived

Life is such

Time comes and goes

This will never change

A human's nature however

Is hard to change

Refusing to let the night go..

When come morning,

Refusing to let the sheets go..

Life is such..

obsession.new

always, it catches you in one clean sweep

unannounced 

unexpectedly 

always beautiful

mostly peculiar 

life. life and its funny ways

wonder when will this one stop 

哈哈！

A self reminder..

It's just a little past 4 am..

And I am feeling overwhelmingly grateful.

Yes, the feeling is indescribable 

The reasons many. Hard to put exactly in words but valid and solid in me now, this moment

I need to put this down, to remind myself of this wonderful feeling weeks, months to come.

This is great. Life is good.

Simply being Alive is a blessing.

The present is a gift.

Seize it, your way.

:]

Happy New Year 2015!

Started the new year with 3 temple visits, 3 days in a row.. :)

Hope the new year will be one filled with blessings ..

So crazy December is over now, till I see you again..

Upbeat January is now here.. We are in fact, nearing mid-month now (yay!)

Didn't stop me from pulling a no-show at work today anyway.. (be good, jen.. pls be good)

Anyways, the post-vacation-wanderlust mood is now slowly but surely being replaced with the yearning-for-the-CNY mood 

Yes, the cheesy CNY festive songs are never comparable to the magical Christmas jingles.. but I was too caught up then in December, and .. nothing compares seriously to this once-in-a-year time of the year.. am plotting my CNY leaves already.

Keep Calm & Carry On..

& Happy New Year 2015!!

it's December after all...

tonight.. after so many december nights,
i'd stopped by facebook like how i do every night..
and i see faces of joy and postings of celebrations.

birthdays, births, proposals, marriages..
dong zhi dinners, early christmas celebrations..
holidays, and year end vacation shots..
it's all positive, it's all good..

i've been preoccupied.. for the entire 23 days of december,
with work, i.e. Currentjob.
couldn't help it, still can't.
i've missed things.. this december.

this week at woek is extra woeful..
a vital colleague is away on leave, i am left mostly to my own.
3 working days to pull through before he comes back..
everyone wants their chairs & tables before the big xmas eve feast.
i've made it past 2 so far, not entirely unscathed.. -.-"
i can't wait for my turn now

really, i can't wait for my turn now.
merry x'mas.. & happy new year.. ;)



another itch scratched...

Happy 2014~

It's about half a month to the new year

This is spontaneous

It's about 17 days to the new year

I have a year end trip coming up

But I'm also in the middle of something new

A challenging New job

I am one month old at Currentjob 

Bless me

I have this wall in front of me

Imposed by non other than yours truly

I can't help it

The nightmares and obligations to do well

Then again, it's only 17 days to the new year

It's only 17 days left for you to chart whatever your "to dos" in 2014

Don't let life pass you by

Think! Hurry!!

But then, at the end of the day,

You have only yourself to answer to

Happy 2014🎉

And happy new year..🙏

This weekend..

found some new music on spotify.. It's all good

hang out day with mom & dad at the mall(s). Even dad got himself a piece of heattech

started the "dream book". Marrie would be proud

streets in HK came alive. the wars of the world

ashes & plumes in Japan.. mom nature venting out

this just came in. Attacked by Odin in my Samurai Siege game. 

It's all due to time. It's all in due time.

Bummer?

I'd like to think.. That the nice things would come to you when you aren't expecting them..

Likewise, the not so nice things would come and catch you off guard when you're anything but ready.

This is life.

Beautiful indeed...

how do you go about this somberly?

War of the worlds.. and our poor plane becomes a thing of collateral damage..

ill-fated they say.. but who truly knows what really happened?

Conspiracy theories aside, it is hard to not feel sad for the nation, for our national carrier.. 

This is when the country is still reeling from the recent tragedy that is MH370

As shock and confusion sink in.. It became obvious that this is a thing much bigger than being just "a malaysian thing".. more than half of those who perished were Dutch, not to mention the various few nations

This is truly a tragedy that transcends borders.. 

It's no good comparing the Dutch and the Chinese.. likewise it's no use comparing the MH17 to the MH370 tragedies.. Equally saddening, that's what it is.

It is most unfortunate that there is no survivor from both tragedies

It is most unfortunate that my country is now to be known rather infamously for reasons less coveted

tell me..

what's cool?

no, seriously, what's cool?

going bonkers at work and realized I'm suddenly curious with what's cool?

what's cool to you?

a great boss?

a fantastic partner?

a happy family that's yours?

a glorious single life?

paying for your own stuffs?

a pay-all hubby?

a baby?

a full marathon? (that's 42km mind you)

a jet setting work / travel lifestyle?

volunteer work with animals?

underprivileged kids? or adults?

concerts?

k pop?

g dragon??😆

Instagram?

traffic jams?

a song you like?

that neighbor from the other office?

clocking out at 6?

mesut ozil? .. or muller?

another holiday?

what's cool?

🛀

peculiar~

closing the eyes seems like a chore tonight..

it's past one in the morning and yet my mind's too alive for this hour 

but it's a weekday.. well, midweek to be fair

why? the flurry of thoughts?

too much feeding of the mind I guess.. the sights and sounds from the internet..

and the fact that it's kick off soon .. brazil2014⚽️

but really.. I can't seem to put a reason to it

I'll be dragging meself off the bed come morning. . .

sigh..

the world is abuzz tonight..

with the latest press conference by the PM confirming the state that is MH370 now.

heartfelt responses and shares on the social network, no doubt overwhelmed by the epicness of the tragedy, I get.

the urge to share out the news first-hand to everyone else, okay, that I get too..

but even at times like these, there will still be fools around, blinded by so much ignorance..

sigh... the world is abuzz tonight.. imagine the amount of data traversing through the miles of fibre optics across land and sea..

I had not intended to put my 2 cents down tonight.. 

but still, angered by the ignorance of some, I just couldn't help it..

I hold dear my country, flaws and all.. 

this was after all, a very unfortunate turn of event.. R.I.P.

"all right, good night."

MH370.. Day#17

Rest In Peace...

a case of bookfuq

.. when you've mulled over almost three quarters on an entire 600pages book in an afternoon plus the afterhours.. and find the main characters dead like two pages before the epilogue. . . wouldn't that make you want to tear out the pages too??#%@!!

a revelation.. but then again, maybe not

If the human mind can be so simply pacified with pure logic and common sense, 

There would be no such thing as emotion .. and the onward despair, or happiness it brings.

Computers and programming languages exist in such a way that is no-nonsense If, Else logic

But humans are no computer brains

Emotions come into play

So does stubbornness and persistence.. even resistance

Which sometimes make some things quite simple turn into very complicated affairs

But that is exactly what makes us human